Wednesday, April 13, 2011

4 weeks 40 weeks


JJ is 4 weeks old.. and officially full term. I'm testing out the nickname...JJ I seem to like it better.. So far I call him JJ and "little squeeker" because he squeeks when he eats.. Speaking of eating.. Our guys suck/swallow is just not there yet. He eats.. all breast milk but chokes.. spits.. gulps and then spits up after every feeding.. I have myself now wondering if he is gaining any weight.. I ordered a baby scale for preemies.. not here yet.. so I worry everyday. He seems Okay other than the colic. Yes I've got the Colic baby.. Grip water.. Mylicon cocktails.. are in full swing. My Dr tells me that he will grow out if this in another week or so as he is now full term and should be able to do the things that he was having trouble with before. I will have to video tape him "grunting" so you guys can hear it.. It is funny and sad at the same time.. He sounds like an old man! Anyway - I love our guy and have settled into sleepless nights pretty well.. Don't worry I get some rest.. just not in a row yet.. He is growing and I know it will just take time. These have been the hardest and BEST 4 weeks of my life.. Looking forward to every changing step and whatever he brings to our life. I am also looking forward to feeding every 4 hours instead of 3 (one more week) Whew...

Joseph can you hear mommy? I know you can little guy.. I think of you every day and love you more with each passing moment.. As I know now what I missed with you it makes me sad.. you should be 19 months now... running laughing and getting into trouble while I try to care for your little brother.. Sometimes when we are up at night I feel the calm.. is that you my son? All my love mom.

2 comments:

Jenn said...

He is so cute and precious! I remember those first few weeks being a blur of excitement and exhaustion! Leah was colicky too and she still has a pretty fiesty personality that alternately makes me laugh and want to pull my hair out LOL! Hugs to you though and before you know it he will be sleeping longer. I miss those moments with a little one sleeping in my arms though. I keep hoping that we will be adding to our family again soon.

Mary said...

I am so happy for the arrival of your rainbow! I am sorry he is having feeding issues now, but hopefully as he gets bigger they will improve. He is so beautiful and I love the nickname! I know he will never replace Joseph but he is a lovely ray of sunshine!