Monday, May 17, 2010
Just the tip of his fathers fingers touching his sons infant hand. Sometimes my heart hurts but with longing for my husband to have had more time. More time to be his father.. more time to be his son. To play baseball. To sleep on the couch... To sneak out to fast food when I wasn't watching. To love. He only got a tiny little tip. When I see him now I know what he is thinking and feeling and how often this little touch and go love has nestled into his heart. More than mine if possible.. more than most I can tell. His life like looking at an iceberg where you can't even imagine the enormity of what lays underneath or in this case.. in a life. Filled completely in 1 day.
Joseph can you hear mommy? 7 months old already.. I know more about you each day and your love keeps spreading out.. growing.. holding into so many lives. I miss you my son... Love mommy.
at 2:40 PM