Friday, May 21, 2010
I'm holding onto him... too much in my body. I am holding on so tightly that I can't get back to a normal cycle. I am holding onto him so deep that I'm releasing too much cortisol. I'm holding onto him so close that I would feel a part of me leaving if letting go... And yet I must. Let it go. Let it go.. Let it all out and empty myself into just the place in my heart. Where he belongs. Where he resides. I need to make room for other love. Space for myself that has until now been shoved aside. I am letting go.
Joseph can you hear mommy? Missing you and loving you. Healing inside places and knowing you so close. Love you the most... mommy.
at 7:42 AM