Sunday, April 4, 2010

Lost the fight

After 6 weeks and 4 days... my little rainbow baby fight was lost. I miscarried yesterday my hope. I mourned this child all day. It is a different kind of sorrow. I never saw the heart beat. I didn't hold this child in my arms. I never felt her move inside or get the hiccups. I almost didn't know my rainbow was there. She tried so hard for us.... just couldn't hang on. My body feels like a punching back. My heart has taken yet another blow. Let my spirit begin to rise on Easter. My focus has shifted into healing myself once more. Gaining the strength it will take and the courage to move forward once more.

Joseph can you hear mommy? Happy Easter my son. What a wonderful day to be in heaven. I'm smiling for you my little one. I miss you sweet baby. love mommy.

13 comments:

Elizabeth said...

Oh sweety, I am so sorry. May God bring you peace as you remember the spirit of Easter. *many hugs*

lis said...

oh brandy im so very sorry. im sending you hugs and love and peace today, my sweet friend. i wish things could be different. now Joseph has a sibling in heaven. i can just see him and Laila playing together.
xoxo

Jill said...

I am so very sorry. I have been thinking of you and am sending you so much love! How I wish things could be different. xo

Stephanie said...

I just came over from Salma's blog. I'm so sorry to read about your miscarriage...your little Joseph was so beautiful...I enjoyed seeing his pictures so much...

R. said...

I am so sorry. There are not many words of comfort right now. I wish you peace and strength. The pictures of your Joseph are beautiful.

lastchanceivf said...

I came over from Lis's blog. I'm just so very sorry for your loss, and for all of your pain. Know that hearts everywhere are thinking of you and sending you peace.

Once A Mother said...

I am so, so sorry. Heartbroken is the only word that can signify how I feel for you. Absolutely heartbroken. Praying for brighter days for you. You are in my thoughts...

xx

rebecca said...

So sorry for your loss, praying that God brings you the strength & courage you need to get through this heartbreak.

~LFCA

Sunny said...

I am here from LFCA. I am so sorry for your loss, sending a prayer to heaven for your sweet little one.

mybumpyjourney said...

I am so very sorry for your loss! {{HUGS}}

theclam said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

May you find healing in Him.

xxx

(LFCA)

Meredith said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. :::sending thoughts of peace and courage:::

Safiyyah said...

I came here from Salma's ... to offer you a hug. And to let you know that you are not alone.