Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I have feelings sometimes... of Joseph. Actually of him. I feel my stomach roll or my rib ache where he used to kick. I know that he is with me always but sometimes it is so real The tiny pressure on my finger of his hand griping mine... the heavy head resting in my arms. Sometimes it is so real.. and then phantom. I see him in clouds or the way the sun rises.. I feel him in my body... it is so hard to explain. Warm comfort and then awe... It happens fast and goes quickly but it is so real that I can see him resting there.. still with me.. safe. I love the way that feels.
Joseph can you hear mommy? I feel you my son.. and see you in the good you are doing for others. The pain of missing you comes.... and there you are. I love you little one... my own. mom.
at 4:34 PM