It is so precious. It is so unbelievable and it is so wanted by all BLM's. We will never see them grow up. We will never know if they were funny or smart.. gifted or athletic. I know in my heart Josephs life would have been fun that is for sure. I wish for him in heaven sometimes the same as I would have wished for him here.. That he is happy and comforted.. mostly that he is loved. I know he knows that and I know how much at peace I am with him there.. With heaven being so real and the gifts that he has brought... Our struggles to conceive I've posted.. Our fight for life gaining momentum I've been focused for a while on us.. my family. I need to turn my attention to another part of life.. one where others need me. It is time I do more for those that are in need. I started helping a friend on her journey in infertility land. I went to her house to be there just in support while she did her first shot.. She didn't need me there but it is was nice none the less to be needed just in case. Another close friend of mine is where I'm headed next. I'm going to her and her family for a while... They have experienced a loss but the focus is not on the departure of the person who's gone but on the two children (teenagers) that need guidance.. acceptance.. hope.. and love. I will be there... Even if it is just to bring lunch today. Even if it is just to listen... Drive an errand or to encourage. There are so many underlying layers of the circle of life. Just remember to look around you for those who might need you and help. Life as we know is way to short to stay inside yourself. Spread your gifts of strength to everyone you can.
Joseph can you hear mommy? Good morning my beautiful. I love you my son with all my heart. mommy