Sunday, January 10, 2010

With Joseph in my Heart

Moving forward is different from moving on... Paul and I are going back to our Fertility specialist. We are getting ready to try for another pregnancy... another baby, new life. The projected date for IVF transfer is going to be March 8, 9 or 10. I am not forgetting the past. I am not forgetting Joseph. I am moving forward carrying my son with me while I walk forward on step at a time. I am living. I am living a life with my son as a part of me. The better part of who I am today. I dreamed of him last night. I couldn't quite make out what the dream was. I tried to go back to sleep and get it.. I just couldn't. When I woke, I knew it was him coming to me in my dream... He didn't make it all the way in but it was Joseph. He was waking me up and pushing me forward. So I will go forward...with Joseph in my heart.

Joseph can you hear mommy? I'm loving you so much. You fill me with such pride and joy. You are amazing. I miss you my son but I am glad you are moving forward with me. All of my love and extra kisses... mommy.

1 comment:

Elizabeth said...

Though some people tell us to move on we can't. But we can move forward. I'm glad you are taking steps to move forward. Hope all goes well. *hugs*