My head is just above the water.... and I am hanging on. I am so hopeful that my body heals again from surgery. I ask a lot of it. I have asked a lot of it over the past 2 years. I need it to recover again. To host life again. To be able to move forward again. Inch by inch... My arms are tired from holding everything up. My heart pumping in anticipation. Joseph's memory heavy in my mind. Grief weighs you down. I know that I could tread water forever if that is what I was told to do but, I could use some good news to hold me up while my arms take a rest and my mind quiets down.
Joseph can you hear mommy? Good morning baby. My sweet little one... I love you. Mommy.